This innocuous book came to my attention in 2005 and it has passed through my hands many times since. I’d no inclination to peruse its contents for I’d ceased to believe in miracles. In 2005, I was cursing God for abandoning me. I was using all my energy to stave off the hell I descended into 15 years earlier by marrying a person as un-Godly as anyone could be.
In 2007, while packing some books as donations for a book fair, my hand once more fell on “A Course in Miracles “.By this time, I’d secured david hoffmeister podcast a divorce from my husband but was still dealing with the fallout. As I grasped the book, I became very thoughtful and calm. That which was it about that book that invoked feelings I hadn’t experienced in a very long time? My hand clung to the book refusing to place it down. Realizing that this was a sign that I’d better have a closer look, I made a cup of tea and sat in my personal favorite reading chair. With great curiosity, I dedicated to the blue hardcover and read “A Course in Miracles, a basis for inner peace.” Wow. That was quite a bold statement but okay, I decided to bite. Taking a deep breath, I pondered probably the most obvious question: What IS the inspiration for inner peace? This book instantly opened a classic wound and it had better have the clear answer to healing.
“A Course in Miracles” is truly that, a course. Written in three parts, this book is not to be studied lightly and can not be read in per week or possibly a month. There is text, a workbook for students and a guide for teachers. I’d the sudden urge to fling the book across the space because I was deeply and profoundly afraid. I instinctively understood that after I began reading this book, I would definitely have to alter and was I ready for the journey ahead?
My favorite movie is “The Matrix “.The main character Neo is looking for the clear answer to the matrix. He understands the matrix exists but he doesn’t know what it is. The person with the clear answer, Morpheus, contacts Neo and offers the opportunity for truth by giving Neo an option between going for a blue pill or a red pill. Take the blue pill and remain ignorant or take the red pill and find the clear answer to the matrix. Before he reaches for his pill of preference, Morpheus cautions Neo which should he pick the red pill, they can never get back to the life he have been living.
“A Course in Miracles” is the red pill. Do I read it and change everything I find out about the world and myself or do I take the blue pill and make “A Course in Miracles” book fair fodder?
As I choke down the red pill, I flip to Lesson 1 of 365 in the workbook for students and promptly read, “Nothing I see in this room means anything “.Oh dear. Could it be too late to take the blue pill?